Sir,
If, by some coincidence, you feel the same — and you were expecting me to make the first move this time, for once: I'm sincerely sorry — if you felt left out, uninvited. I wanted to, very much so, believe me. I always do. But I'm shy af, and since most likely I'm delusional, I don't wanna overstep — I don't wanna be inappropriate. I just froze, like a child. Plus it was kind of late, and I assumed you were about to go to bed. Anyway, not looking for excuses here.
I'm just so uneasy, the situation I put myself in — or the one we are both in, idk — is complicated. Very much so. You have more to lose, and I don't want to lose my face. I'll fight my urges, I need to chill the F out. So if you feel what I do, you'll have to do the first step, and the second, likely the third as well. It's not fair, I know. I'm sorry, love.
But I'll make payback worth it, pinky promise.
Better safe than sorry.
Yours, envers et contre tout.