Good morning texts. Small, but not insignificant. Actually pretty meaningful.
When the first awaken thought I have is of you, for you. When I light up my phone and see your notification. When you wish me a good day and call me by a cute nickname. How wonderful.
When we were laying down in bed, in sweat, after a wild session. When you had your arm around me, when your fingers were drawing lines down my back. When my head was on your biceps before moving on to your chest, my hand laying on your belly. In a silence that meant everything. Choosing for once to stay for a little while.
When we were relaxing in the swimming pool bench, me falling asleep, you waking me up with a stolen kiss on the cheek. When we went to lay on the sun baths, reaching our hands out to each other to grab them in a blissful giggle. Like children, like lovers.
I’m so curious to see how things will keep unfolding between us. Next time, you’ll get to spend the night, you’ll get to wake up next to me. Two days in a row. What will you make of these moments? What will I? What will we?
Matin caresse, matin tendresse.
Keep blurring the lines, crossing more boundaries? Showing feelings or restraint?
I didn’t want to flinch, but at the same time, how not to? When you’re everything that you are. You didn’t want to flinch, but at the same time, how not to? When I’m everything that I am.
The two of us, the pair no one would understand. But we do, oh, we sure do. It might not make sense from the outside, but it sure does from the inside. Inside our minds, inside our hearts. There’s something, something about us, within us. Unshakable, limitless.
The pull some refer to as destiny, or the invisible thread. We see it. We just cannot acknowledge it fully. Because it would reshape our entire universes. And that shit is scary, I get it, you get it.
But as we were joking about: we only live once. Might as well fuck around and find out.
You might as well hug me from behind while I’m cooking, might as well kiss me in the neck. See how that feels. I might as well show you the sweet side of me, after you already explored the wild side. See how that feels.
Maybe it will make us feel dizzy, confused, lost, scared. Maybe it will make us feel like there shouldn’t be anything else to our lives than that. Maybe it will make us destroy everything only to rebuild something fantastic.
What will make me dizzy for sure is knowing this time might as well be the last time. I don’t know how many more opportunities we can steal, how much time is left on our hourglass. That will make me confused, lost, scared. Finding you, only to lose you. I guess that’s the game we chose to play, and that was the implied rule from the start. It’s just easier to not think about it.
Go with the flow. Not sure if we’ll end up in a waterfall or a quiet lake.
I’ll cherish those moments as long as they last. I’ll cherish you longer than that, though. There will always be a part of my heart carrying your name. I couldn’t explain why, but that’s just how it is.
See you soon, honey bunny.